We are so close! Close to going across the globe again, close to seeing their smiling faces again, close to finalizing the very last step of our adoption journey, and so close to bringing our babies home (Yes they are older children and yes I will call them babies as I refer to all of my children)! I simply cannot believe that we are finally here. God is so good and he has been faithful to get us here.
I am thankful that he is, even when I am unfaithful. My faith has wavered in these last few weeks. I had my worry glasses on as I looked around me instead of above me. Once again I have proven myself unfaithful to a God that is more than faithful. He is everlasting and true.
You see, there are so many variables with adoption, especially international adoption. One of the major forces of adoption is timing. Ask any adoptive parent and they will tell you that timing is everything and every minute away from your child is counted. So when my plate began to fill with things beyond my control I began to wonder what God was thinking and feeling sure that he needed my help in planning all of this (even though he is the MAKER of time). So I fretted, I griped, I complained, and I cried. All signs of my weak heart. But God was faithful...
Little did I know that He would call my precious Nanny home smack dab in the middle of it all. Little did I know that what Nanny left for me, my sisters, cousins, and everyone who knew and loved her was a legacy that I needed, smack dab in the middle of all of this. Little did I know that God would work out every single detail of timing from schedules, surgeries, and the amazing drop in airline prices to fit my needs. Plus, God would answer my selfish prayer of allowing my mom to travel with me. Oh He is good! And little did I know that the last sermon I would hear before going on this second trip to Ethiopia would be based on Nanny's life verse. One that all 10 of her grandchildren know by heart because it was written on every card that she gave to each of them.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he will direct your paths. " Proverbs 3:5&6
Yes we are near the end of the waiting. Our babies will be home in less than two weeks. We will have them in our home and in our hearts forever. We will finally be able to see the fruition of so many answered prayers. But in so many ways our journey is just beginning. They have so much to learn and we do as well. There are a whole new set of issues that will arise once we get home, that may or may not surprise us. If I listen to my weak heart I will be terrified. But if I listen to the favorite words of Amy Reeves, my heart will be at peace. God has this. He has proven faithful, just in this month, in so many ways. I am confident that he is committed to my family, all 7 of us.
